Saturday, February 6, 2010

Something exciting!

Well hello to all my blog followers :) I have been chastised for not updating my blog, so I decided this morning I better do something about it! Its Saturday morning, and its raining... and I am quite content in my cozy bed. I don't have many things to report today, but I do have a few. As of last week, my total weight loss is 87 pounds. I am still getting my buns kicked at the gym, and that is paying off in inches more than pounds, and I am totally ok with that! I will be having a 2 month assessment next week sometime, so I will be sure to report those figures. Thursday and Friday night was our SCC conference at the church, so last week I decided that maybe I should do a lil shopping to see what I could find. Lately, shopping has been a lil depressing to me. The reason is because I am getting smaller, and I am almost too small for the chubby girls stores. Now I know that you are thinking, pshhh, that doesn't sound like a problem to me!!! But friends, it is a problem. I have been chubby as long as I can remember, and I only had a few stores that I shopped at because the shopping world does NOT accommodate chunkers... So I have been kind of scared. I keep thinking, where am I going to shop? It is such an odd feeling. I wandered around Macy's the other night thinking, I cant fit in this stuff, can I?? I decided to just try a few things on... When I slipped on a jacket from the REGULAR section on Macy's, and it not only went on easily, but buttoned with ease as well... I just stood there staring in the mirror. I was like wow... is this for real? I get compliments all the time, and yes, it does make me feel good, but in my mind, I am still fat. Which, I am... but I don't see myself as being able to wear regular girl clothes yet, but clearly, I am! Baby still got back, so I am not wearing the regular girl bottoms yet, but I am on my way. I am proud of myself, and now I am just trying to convince my mind that I actually am getting small. I lived so long in the chubby body, and the transition is difficult. Thank you so much for all your encouragement and compliments. I am so happy that I made the decision to get the lap-band. I understand that this is not for everyone, but it was the best thing I have ever done for myself, and I am so thankful this morning!!! I think Ill go have a protein shake, and get this day started. I am including a pic of "the jacket" that is not from the chubby girls section :) Ya!! Have a great day everyone :)

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